i dont know what to do anymore

ok im 37 suffer from stress anxiety and reccurant depression which i have been battling for at least 20+ yrs as well as paranoia anyway thats not the problem just a bit about me.

anyway i have been with partner for 13yrs bought a house together and now we have split up (7months ago) tho we still live together. anyway the reason we split up is cos i got involoved with someone else. I fell out of love with him and i know its a cop out excuse.
now the other bloke has told me that he has feelings for me and he likes spending time with me being with me when he comes to town which involves a 3hr bus journey ahe always wants us to spend time together yet he finds the situation we are in is hard.
yet he is a flirt and yes a bit of a sl*t and when we went out yesterday eh spent all the time flirting with a friend and ended going back up town with her and her on off partner and he ended up holding her mobile phone which she 'forgot' to get back he gave it to me as he only comes to town every weekend and now im not stupid and read the texts he sent her so i sent him a message saying that i found the texts and how i feel about him and that i need him to be honest with me and how i feel about him as ive never really told him that im (stupidly) falling for him but when we see each other we always end up kissing we've tried not to and we to a certain degree cant help ourselves from doing this and everything kind of points to him really having feelings towards me just the way he holds me strokes my face and other stuff that he has said to me etc is always very loving yet the way he behaves isn't tho i have made it clear i still want us to be friends and continue seeing each other and the honest truth is i really dont know wot to do anymore anybody have any suggestions/advice thanks Top
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